Ups and Downs

This weekend was not what I expected.  Lets just say that for my expectations there were some holes.  Don’t get me wrong, the weekend was fun, for the most part.  Just that some unexpected situations arose.  So lets cover that first.

Thursday and Friday both Krystalla and myself noticed my cat was not behaving normally.  We didn’t think to much of it until Friday night.  We figured we would have to call the vet but didn’t understand until Saturday morning on how bad he was.  We texted that morning, and within an hour we had him schedule to be in looked at right away.

The prognosis was not good.  Within an hour we found out that the liver was an issue, along with being dehydrated and a few other issues.  Worst part is that he was not stable, and even if we wanted to go through the treatment he may die during it.  We already had discussed what our limitations would be and with tears swelling in my eyes (yes I got teared up) I stated that we would put him to sleep.

All this was happening when we were supposed to be getting ready for our wine tour, which we now had to race home, get ready and then race off to the winery about 40 minutes away.  We made it with time to spare, although I drove a little fast.  Through out this time (and to be fair never went away all day) my mind wander back to my cat.  Don’t get me wrong, the few hot chicks, well more than a few, along with my sense of humour at times made it fun.  The distraction helped but my mind kept wandering back to the cat, and then the party tonight.  We bought a few bottles of wine and then came home.

By this point I am getting a bit drained, but the party must go on right?  So it was present time, and after open the dancing groot I was advised to go online to look at my second gift.  During the discussion my laptop decided to turn off.  Being a little drunk and not in the mood after 15 minutes I put the laptop down and worked on another one.  Picking my gift, and once this was we tried cards against humanity.  It was fun, although with only four people playing I think we needed more.

So this leads into the party.  The plan since January was to go back to the club that we hosted Numbnutts party at.  Unfortunately one of the couples that were down for his couldn’t make it to mine.  I was disappointed, but that is how things happen.  Life gets in the way and I understand that.  Although we did have Kyrstalla’s boytoy coming with his wife, so it should be fun.  Will be her first time at a club.

After stuffing our faces full of food and not able to move, I thought that the club should help us burn off all the good food.  We got changed, and arrived at the club not long after it opened.  What is key about these clubs is that each night is unique.  The people who are there can change dramatically, and on this night this seem to be the case.  It was quiet, not dead, but definitely not the same up beat vibe we had when we were there in January.  The other thing was the crowd was older.  No I don’t mean old, but there were not the same variety of age that we saw last time.  Surprising on how much dynamics can change with the crowd.

Oh and the dj sucked this time.  No one was really dancing, even though the girls did for a bit, until they fell into the guys laps.  I didn’t see Krystalla for over an hour as she was busy with her boytoy.  I expected this to happen, although I was a bit surprised on how long.  Lexxi checked in once during all of this, although by this point I was checked out.  My birthday party and everyone was having fun and I got to watch.  Don’t get me wrong I had thought about some things and what might happen.  I knew that with the couples going this evening on how things might happen.  The dynamics and who would be pairing off with who.

Now I don’t want to sound bitter or mad, but you see growing up my birthday was the only day I got attention.  My sister, when she was alive, got all the attention all the time.  So one day out of the year it was my day.  My turn to be front and center.  During the club I felt like the shadow.  Invisible.  This brought me back to my younger days, which is why I became reclusive and unapproachable to my wives.  Krystalla understands me enough to know.  She came to me after take a breather from her boy toy and we talked.

She knows me so well.  What I think surprised her was telling her to go fuck her boy toy.  My night won’t improve, but not going to block and hamper anyone elses night.  Think she was surprised by that, knowing that I was down.  Nothing she can do to fix it.  She knew it.  Although Lexxi still is trying to understand me. (guess I am more complex than I thought).  She came shortly after Krystalla and I finsihed talking.  Had a long chat with Lexxi then, and I think she understood.  She takes a bit of time to process.

Later in the evening, before we had to go, I noticed that Lexxi is upset again.  After she briefly stated why (which is something that we talked about after I took care of her mood) I steered her to a play room and proceed to fuck her good.  Now for those of you who haven’t been to a club like this, you hear everything in the playroom.  Fucking, sucking, screams of joy, along with the music.  So you can imaging my laughter while I am fucking Lexxi on comes Gungnam Style.  Now I am sorry, no matter how good you are you just can’t fuck to that song.  It just doesn’t work.  This became the running joke on Sunday.

We packed up not soon after we finished our Gungnam fuck, and headed home.  The other couples didn’t stay so it was just the quad at the house that night.  It was late, and we went to bed pretty much after we got home.  The next day we slept in a bit, although with four dogs it makes it hard.

This is when I find out my other surprise.  My laptop lcd is dead.  Needless to say I was extremely pissed off.  The weekend was supposed to be for my birthday and with things going as they have it sure didn’t feel like at weekend to celebrate.  Throughout the weekend I got texts from my fwb and I gave them the thumbs up, but in reality it was just not a great weekend.  The laptop seemed to be the icing on the cake.  Couldn’t salvage any of the weekend.

By chance one of the other couples wives came back on Sunday morning, just as I was getting into Titanfall on the xbox.  Need to blow shit up to get stress out.  Unexpectedly she stayed for a while, so with that it turned out we got to play cards against humanity.  It was one of the highlights of my weekend.  Laughter and games.  It took the edge off of the crap that I was dealing with all weekend.

Now that it is Monday morning and my actual birthday, I am writing this on my tablet.  Thinking on what I am going to do today.  How am I going to be at work?  And finally how the hell do I get to see a fwb this week and fuck them.  Yes this week will be my selfish week, I think I damn well deserve it after the weekend I had.  My wives planned a weekend, and as much as things did fall apart I won’t every forget it.  They did their best to make sure I had fun.  And outside of the few issues I did.  My next focus after this week will be our trip to Cuba.  Yes three couples down in the tropics.  I am hoping for some things to happen, but after this weekend I suspect I am going to be focusing on one thing for that trip.  Nothing.  No expectations, no care but sun, sand, drinks and good friends.  If by chance I get some pussy then great, but in all fairness having expectations just cause more drama and frustration.  This weekend was a reminder about that.  Expecations can be worse then drama.  Having none helps things flow and with that no drama too.

With that said I am now going to get ready for work.  Drag my ass through the day and then go to jiu jitsu where I can get some frustration out.  Thanks to everyone who cheered me up this weekend.  It has been a screwed up one, and the week I hope will got a lot better.