Stood up

I would think I am polite and nice guy.  If I am not able to meet then I would let the other person know.  Common courtesy. At least that is how I operate.

I have meet a few women online that seem to think that doesn’t matter.   Have been ignored, deleted with no explanation and numerous other things with varying degree of disrespect.  It agitates me with some situations and others infuriating me.  Some of this is instilled from my childhood.  Primarily  being ignored.  Won’t go into specifics but it is the one thing that will set me off.

Needless to say when trying to arrange time with my new lady, who I have been corresponding with for the past month or so, things didn’t go as planned.   I still haven’t heard from her since Friday.  Our date was planned on Saturday evening.   Now it is Tuesday with no idea what happened.

Now there could be situations that would explain this.  Family emergency or accident among other unpleasant things.  That is worst case which I am trying not to think about.

What infuriates me is that there has been nothing sent since Friday.  Nothing! I sent texts through Friday evening and one Saturday morning.   Nothing.  No response.  Dead air.  A simple text is all that I ask.  Would at least let me know it was cancelled.

Since Saturday I have been agitated.  Angry.  And couldn’t find anything I wanted to do.   I want to respond and demand an explanation but I don’t think it would be worth it.  On top of that it kind of screwed up Krystalla’s plans for a short period of time.  She eventually worked out (Better than what I expected) and I did have a local fwb swing by to console me that evening.  Cuddling on the couch was helpful to distract me.

Still didn’t take away my anger. Honesty and communicating is the primary things I believe in. Don’t think it is asking for too much.  Guess the “treat others how you like to be treated” doesn’t exist anymore.

Plus this new lady was over an hour away.  Not like I would see her often.  We chatted easily and there was no signs that there was an issue.  So I am baffled to what happened.

I also don’t get a new opportunity often.  Heck it is rare that I even have a new girl to chat with.  The last one was in the fall/winter and unexpected on how it happened.

And not like I need more new blood.  I have enough girls to keep my hands full.    The problem is my kink is new blood.  I just need to figure out how to satisfy it without new women.   That is my next hurdle.

I have started to put this behind me.   Still stings.   Worst part I can’t even say what happened.  People ask how my weekend is I can’t say I got stood up.  Double life’s can be complicated.  As much as I don’t want to expose this part of my life, there are times I wish I didn’t have to keep it hidden.

No I am not coming out but it is something that you have to be prepared for.  Being upset over something that you can’t explain makes other situations awkward at times.   The joys of the lifestyle.   Growing pains always hurt, but at the end you are better off.