Cumming Weeks

I rarely just talk about my life on here.  Ya I know I talk about the sex, couples, fwb and adventures but I don’t actually just talk.  Since I have gotten back from Chicago the past few weeks have been very hard on me.  Primarily mostly related to work but there other factors as well.

One is that my job really does suck.  I have been in this type of role for over 15 years, and I need to move on and expand my skill set.  I can’t learn any more in this role.  The hard part is I am too good at it, so I have always found it extremely hard to move around within any company.  Additionally, an opportunity for my wife didn’t pan out again, and it set me off.  So my frustration grows from being in a position that I don’t want and can’t leave.

On the frustration part a few of my fwb have been going through some tough times.  It has me stressed at times that I can’t help more then just talking.  I care for all of them, and with that comes the knowledge that I am limited on what I can do.  They appreciate that they have me to talk to and lean on me for support.  They have told me many times but I still feel helpless some days.  Hopefully things improve for them in the coming weeks.

And then there is the family matter that has started over four weeks ago and has not gone away.  My grandfather is ill and with that there is complications.  This is my last grand parent who is alive, and even though I see him rarely it still pains me to know that things just can’t be simple.  He lives far away which adds to the stress as well.  This has also carried into my personal life and because of that I have been a little short on patience.

Now that I have cleared that from my mind, I can move onto the fun stuff.  I will be seeing my quad this weekend, and since it is a family trip it will be low key.  Doesn’t matter since the kids loving going and so do the dogs.  Hopefully I can decompress and recharge while I am there.  It has been a while since we have seen each other and will be good to reconnect again.

Finally have the escape plan booked, which is in April.  Off to Cuba we go, quad and another couple.  Will be our first trip with a large group and I am looking forward to the adventure.  Glad that it is finalized, although I will not think about it till it gets closer since right now it is damn tease with this dame cold winter blast we have been having over the past few weeks.  That is how I operate since thinking about it now would drive me crazy, along with everything else that is happening.

And then there is my birthday.  We celebrated Bob’s birthday not to long ago, and the woman have decided a repeat for my birthday.  Actually, it will be a bit bigger since we have another couple going.  My wife’s new bf and wife.  Will be a fun time as always.  Although this time I think we will be bringing music that we want played just in case the DJ doesn’t have it.  Didn’t think DJ would be behind the times on new music.

None of this is new to my wives, they have been supporting me through all of this.  And some of you already know some of these details, and I thank you for supporting me.  Not wanting to burden anyone since most people are dealing with stuff too, so don’t feel that I have kept things from you.  It has been a wild start to the year and with the highs and lows I am hoping things well settle down to be more balanced in the coming months.  From the birthday bash and then my trip to Chicago and now into February the weeks have flown by.  It has been a very busy few weeks of late and from the looks of it the cumming weeks are going to be just as busy.