Bring on 2018

The past year has been somewhat of a challenge for me. Primarily on the social aspect since work has consumed my life. The amount of hours worked the last half of the year has earned me high praise from my upper management, but at the cost of no life. I barely have any time for connections, and even my wife has seen me little and has suffered the lack of companionship.

It is one thing that will be changing in 2018. I do enjoy what I do for work, in some sense, but I do not want it to affect my relationships that I have built over the years. Which is another thing that has evolved over the past year. My social relations that I have made have come and gone more this year then in the past. I don’t have the same breath of options as I once had. Let along I don’t have the time to see them either. The few woman that I see now are few and far between.

My committed relationships have been going well. With work our poly couple have been coming to see us more then the usual rotation of houses that we do. The long distance Chicago girlfriend I see about every 3 to 5 months cycles it has been going well. Changes with her have also happened with her and has made her less stress. Do you sense a theme?

Which has also enlightened me on another facet that I didn’t think of. Stress. High stress levels for me have a negative side effect that affects my sex drive, let along my companionship needs. Sex for some is a way to relieve stress. And long time ago it might have, but with the number of relationships that I have it seems to add. If I don’t have the time, let along the urges, then it adds to my stress. Our first child was conceived when I left my one job to take another. The stress was gone, no more bullshit. Well different bullshit but you get the idea. This was also when I had a high sex drive, but reflecting on this made me realized how stress affects me. And the amount of pressure I have had over the past few months has been the highest I have ever had.

Saying good by to 2017 is something that I happy to do. I may have made progress in my career. The cost for that is just to high. I am not as young as I once was. Taking care of myself is the first priority, followed by my primary partner.