At the end of the dildo

These are my thoughts over the past few days.  The hardest part lately is that the woman that I am involved with are reading this on a regular basis.  I am not here to make drama, but I also want to express to everyone, friends and to my followers on my blog, on what I am thinking.  Lately I have been to hesitant on putting my personal thoughts up since I am concerned on the reaction I will get from my FWB, wife, or poly wife.  So with that said, FUCK IT.  I can’t walk keep posting erotic stories (yes I will write more for you perverted people) but I need to get back to my personal thoughts and insight.  Plus my wives don’t want me to hold stuff in, so out it cums (yes pun intended).  We are all adults, this is not high school, and if there are issues or concerns than damn well ask.  Just be prepared for the answers.  Now that bit of house keeping is out of the way read on for my lastest babble.

As I am watching my two wives grind themselves to climax on a double ended dildo I wonder.  Wondering what they expect from me.  Bob is a given and dives right in to help as much as he can.  He enjoys having the woman controlled so he can apply his torture.  Sure I don’t mind, but I like using my voice.  Commanding them to do something, than have Bob repeat the command it was like I was directing but I had another pair of hands doing the work that I can’t do.  Watching Bob do his magic was something I have seen before.  He knows Krystalla3’s limits more now so he pushes her.  It is erotic but I also cringe a few times too.

So it has come to my mind that the last two nights have played out, I am the director.  I sit in the shadows, throwing out commands or suggestive ideas.  The girls and guys take those suggestions or commands and run with it.  Smiling to myself I know that I enjoy this but I don’t get off on it.  And that is okay, since the girls are getting off which is the important point.  Handing a new toy to Twisted Bob or suggestion and he runs with it.  With much success I might add.  I am good with it.  He doesn’t need my input, but he takes my suggestions, as do the woman, and runs with it.

Now don’t get me wrong.  The girls don’t ignore me.  Not at all.  When they come up for air, they look for me to make sure I am good.  So I am included in a different way than what is happening in front of me.  So this does help with watching and not being fully involved.  Why don’t I jump in?  Well most times there is no need or what options I have available, my body is not ready for it yet.  Either way, I do make some concious effort to interact, but not in a major degree.  Touch, play, feeling, or even verbally I do make some effort when is needed.  I just ain’t the center of attention or the focal point during the group sessions.  I am more the little dirty voice inside their heads.

So with all that babbling out of the way, what is my point?  Simply put I am good.  With everything that is happening previous, now and in the future.  The woman are having fun, and the ones that can explore are doing that when opportunity presents itself.  I will go with the flow and if everyone is having fun that is all that matters to me.

So don’t worry about me.  If I cum it will be when the timing is right.  I want the woman to cum, over and over and over… you get the picture.  Watching a woman cum is erotic and hot.  That is my enjoyment and if you want to return the favour I sure wouldn’t argue.  Just know that I want you to cum too, and that the woman is the priority and all other things are second to that.

Oh, and remember the director needs to test out all the new woman talent first. 😉