Even though I have not been posting as much, this site is still active and does have little bit of traffic. This journey started so long ago, and with that it has opened both of our eyes regarding relationships and the work that is involved. Lately the biggest challenge is not so much relationships but more health and how we have aged.
Hopefully I can be more active on posting, since I do need to keep myself sane and this is one of the outlets that helped so much when we first started out on this crazy journey.
Lets start with myself, who had to have an emergency appendicitis procedure on Nov 1st, 2023. No level of description can explain the pain that I felt. I will say that I have found my threshold though and do not want to test that level again. This also had two major effects, one positive and the other I am still figuring out. One is that I no longer smoke since I went into the hospital. It has been a challenge and even today I still have urges depending on the situation I am in.
The second, which is where I am struggling is my body. After I had the procedure, fourteen days later for the first time I got COVID. Between both of these issues my body decided to say, “Yo Bro, you are over half a century now so how about your body now reflects that.” I have now become the groaner when I move, pass gas as if it is a required activity when I have to move and feel joints that seem to be stiff and not cooperating. My weight went above my heaviest I have ever been prior to the surgery and my lungs decided to not be as effective. Granted I went through lot of changes in that month, but I am still recovering to this day.
As for my partner, her knees are basically done. With age being a factor a replacement is not on the cards yet. It has been challenging to come off the issue last year and realize that I need to be the healthy one. Need to ensure I can support my partner since mobility is not easy for her some days. It has not been easy and my awareness for some things may not be clear as for other activities.
For both of us we have understood that ten years ago we were different in activity levels and we are slowly working through how that looks in 2024. Even going into 2025, I foresee changes on how we define our activity levels and move to a heathier body and mind.
I also stopped all dating sites last November. This was due to combination of my health and obtaining a new phone. Not wanting to focus on someone else when I was still figuring out what my body wanted really hit my self esteem. My relationships that I have had in the past are still going. There has been some that incurred more time in between visits but as we all now, life just gets in the way for some.
Now a year later, I have started to focus on my health more. There are number of factors but the biggest one is that I don’t feel good when I can’t do simple chores that basically gas my body. We have had the Meta Quest 2 for a while now, and with this I have started to move more and feel better after the activities I have played on VR. It is not my only solution but it is the first step to get to other more common activities to improve my health and reduce weight.
The other big point on the weight drop is that I am working towards moving up in my career. This means that I would have to be more business formal dressed and not as casual. I am not going to buy new clothes at the weight I am at now so putting in the work now to get my weight down will ensure that I don’t have to spend money more then once for ward robe changes.
Reflection really has been the whole 2024 year for me. Understanding my body better so that I can make the required changes to improve myself. Mentally I have also been challenged, and I am just now realizing I need to focus more on that in 2025. Self improvement is the key for 2025. It is so important to remind yourself that as much as you can focus on family and friends, self reflection and taking time for yourself is just as important.