At the end of the dildo

These are my thoughts over the past few days.  The hardest part lately is that the woman that I am involved with are reading this on a regular basis.  I am not here to make drama, but I also want to express to everyone, friends and to my followers on my blog, on what I am thinking.  Lately I have been to hesitant on putting my personal thoughts up since I am concerned on the reaction I will get from my FWB, wife, or poly wife.  So with that said, FUCK IT.  I can’t walk keep posting erotic stories (yes I will write more for you perverted people) but I need to get back to my personal thoughts and insight.  Plus my wives don’t want me to hold stuff in, so out it cums (yes pun intended).  We are all adults, this is not high school, and if there are issues or concerns than damn well ask.  Just be prepared for the answers.  Now that bit of house keeping is out of the way read on for my lastest babble. Continue reading At the end of the dildo

Hands and feet and be quiet too!

As I pass Krystalla3 in the stairwell, she had the blind fold in hand, I scrambled up to our bedroom to see what I can find.  I have been planning this for a few days, or at least the act and not what I was planning to do.  You see I am not really a dom, or have actually restrained anyone woman outside of my hands holding her down while fucking.  
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Tied up in my search for meaning

Discovering yourself is an interesting challenge.  You don’t know what it is you are looking for until you come across it.  Like most things you usually are introuduced to something new.  This has been my experience for the past few years.  As to what I have tried, well, I will try almost anything once, twice if I like it. 😉

Unfortunately there are things that I don’t get aroused from.  One is bondage play which stems from my younger days and an interaction with my first long term girlfriend.  Back then I was a cook at a resturant and working with heavy pans you build up strong muscles in your wrists and hands.  Unknowning to me I gripped her wrists to tightly by accident and she told me it hurts.  To this day I focus to not hurt the woman during sex.  I understand that bondage is not always to hurt. It is to restrict the person but for myself I do not feel comfortable with doing that.

One advantage of having more than one partner in this life style is that each person brings there own bag of tricks.  Experience and pleasure is the ultimate goal and everyone is different.  Some squirt while others like to do the bondage.  I just like making woman cum, and if they squirt that is a bonus.  Some love to use toys on woman.  I always feel that I am being replaced by toys but I am starting to slowly come around to toy play.  Krystalla3 would love to hear that, since it is one thing that she loves.  She also is now keen on the bondage thing.  Myself I can’t get there so for here to explore outside of myself it makes me a little nervous.  Not to mention a bit jealous that it is something that I doubt I can experience with her.

Now you are wondering “Why is he not talking to her about this directly?” and the simple answer is we have.  We have talked about this lots of times and she reminds me that she understands that I do not get off on it.  Like I mentioned above, it is something that she is looking for and with other partners it is possible.  My problem is that I feel I let her down, something that I can’t do to please her.  We have both agreed to do what we enjoy and if we try something new and didn’t like it we don’t have to do it again.  Problem is that if one person enjoys it and the other doesn’t where do you go from there?

It is a delima that I didn’t expect to come up since I thought I could do most things. Now I am fighting internally to figure out what does turn me on. What other things besides the act of sex gives me an arousal?

For the past week or so I want to try something new.  Just don’t know what NEW is?  Is it s new couple?  Is it a new girl?  Does it involve toys?  I just don’t know.  I think it stems from my quad signing up on a new site geared towards fetishes.  I didn’t want to join up since I didn’t want the disappointment of being ignored again.  For any site the men out way the woman and it seems that being a woman makes it a lot easier to be engaged.  Men not so much. And I really don’t think I have any fetish.

Looking forward I think new rules will be imposed if that is the direction she wants to explore. Not rules for the bondage but more if it will involve people outside our group. Alone play is not an issue we have done that in the past. Tying my wife up involves a large amount of trust. Regardless if she trusts them I need to also trust them too.

I bounced around in a lot of different places for this blog entry. My mind does that since it is taking all the information in and than formulating a conclusion. At this point I don’t have one yet but stay tuned. When I do I will let you know.

Dicks in a room

When I was younger I frequented the local strip clubs.  Grand illusions that maybe one them hot chicks would take an interest in me beyond just making a few dollars.  Of course it never happened and you always come out poorer.  One thing that I did notice one night in a club which didn’t make much sense to me until I entered into the lifestyle. It happened one night when I was visiting a friend and went club hopping. Been to this club a couple of times and I enjoy the atmosphere.  One thing different was there were a few bachelor parties going on.

At one point they had the grooms men on stage, three of them,  sitting on chairs.  They then we’re told they had to lap dance for the ladies.  It was funny to watch until the end of it when the ladies pulled down there pants.  Never seen that happen before.  Little while later a stripper came on stage tossing around a beach ball.  It ended up being stuck on one of the chairs of stage and she motioned someone to get it. Continue reading Dicks in a room