The lure of new meat

For the past month or so I have been struggling with my quad and what they enjoy.  Let me qualify that the “quad” is: my wife and myself along with our close couple we have been involved with.  The struggle is not our relationship but what they enjoy in the bedroom.  I have tried lots of new things in the past few years and sampled different fetishes.  What I have found is that most don’t excite me.  This has lead me to think about what excites me and it was by accident that it might have been pointed out.

Now before you all think I am just greedy horn dog let me explain further.

For the past month I have been looking for new blood.  New experiences with new girls.  My wife supports this knowing that this excites me and she enjoys me being with other woman.  It wasn’t till the past few weeks that she mentioned that this is my fetish.  You like new girls.  So it has made me think about that some more and with that observations what I have not thought about in a while.

When we first started this adventure I met a few girls online.  We texted regularly and at points sexted as well.  I was almost always walking with a stiff cock around the office and at some points had to go and clean my pants from the precum leaking through my underwear.  Don’t get me wrong my wives can get me hard depending on what we are talking about but it is not as easy.  Why?  Well like marriage, and why we opened up, it starts to become routine.  I get off on finding a new girls buttons and teasing her.  Having them squirm in their pants and soaking their panties.  And when I do meet them for the first time I am all giddy and excited.  With my wife and girlfriend it is familiar.  We are working on changing by trying new things both chatting, texting, and in person. Guess we are the old married couple couple now. So it is progressing.

So with that said you are now thinking I am going to be a man whore and fuck any girl in sight.  As much as that would be interesting, and fun, it is hard enough just to find one new girl who talk to me.  My family life is very important to me.  Actually my two families since we are in very close relationship with our other couple.  The few friends with benefits (fwb) that I have now are great.  I know that seeing them is not easy but we do make the best of it when it does happen.  I also know that I can’t over load to much since I have to balance everyone and I don’t want to offend any of them. After this past week I have realized that what I have right now is great.  It can work and I don’t want any more.

Now that doesn’t mean that if some girl starts chatting me up and makes it know she is interested I wouldn’t chase her.  Of course I will, I am a gentleman. I will state though that it wouldn’t mean more than a fuck.  I have enough now that I don’t want to upset the balance or worst make things even more complicated.  All the woman in my life that I chat with are amazing and so diverse.

With that said I also am not out to hurt or forget anyone either.  It is a juggling act some days on balancing who I talk to, what detail level do they want to know what I am doing and worst if they are venting how to help them knowing I can’t physically go see them to give them support.  This is where I get the most frustrated. As you have read in my other posts I have kind of taken on a support role to other people. I really don’t mind and actually enjoy it.

What I do have a hard time is that it is by chat. It can take a lot of time up. I have had evenings where one person is taking up my time because of a problem. I than try to balance my physical wife and everyone else. Worst is I feel bad that I just can’t pick up the keys and go see them in person. Sometimes in person it can be dealt with so much faster. This is where I am wondering if I should branch out a bit.

What I mean is that we have technology now to interact with streaming video. Maybe I should think about offering services that way as well. I am no doctor or degree in this but I have a unique skill that let’s people open up. Being behind a user name is great to hide but for some that I get to know personally through chat I wonder if being face to face miles apart would make things easier and faster in discussing the issues.

Wow did I ever go off topic on that. From hunting for new meat to supporting more people. Yep. Maybe I am greedy. Maybe I am just to helpful. Maybe I need to see a doctor. Either way I now know more on what I want. Enjoying new experiences is what I like and if that is with a new woman or something within our quad than I am going to go for it.

As to my segway into supporting people I will say this. If you have questions just ask. I am honest and open about everything. I know we have talked to a few couples and have helped them process and think about things that might not have come up with there personal chats. I don’t have all the answers but i am not afraid to give a third party opinion. Sometimes having someone on the outside looking in can shed light on an issue that you are to close too.

And to be clear I treat all of my fwb equal. I have no special treatment, we’ll maybe in bedroom depending on what you like, with any of you. My primary wife is always first and will never change. Our long standing couple is also primary. I don’t want any of you to think you are any less. You are my friends. You know me very well and if we are able to enjoy intimate time together it is a bonus. I choose you all because I enjoy talking and spending time with you in any manner that we have available.

The one thing that some people may not be aware that we don’t just see each other and rip our cloths off. We actually hang without always having sex. Hence the “friends” with benefits.

Now that I hopefully cleared that up, and not confuse anyone in the process, I need to post this. Seems that my phone is buzzing like crazy with all the chatter and I have to catch up on what has been said.

This seems to be the most scatter brain post I have ever written. Will try to keep on point next time.