Bruised and sore

So this will obviously get a reaction from the few women that I see.  This is something that I have been working on dealing with. I am not kinky, and don’t give a woman pain. I have tried and dabbled when we first entered this world but quickly knew it was not for me.

A few of my women are into kink, including my wife.  It has something that has been part of our life but not part of me.  I am not able to do any of it after trying multiple different things. Don’t get me wrong, I understand a lot after being in the kink lifestyle by association. Long ago I found out that I could not give pain to any woman.  So with that in mind, and then having this whole world opening up to my wife and me it has been a soul searching time for both of us.
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Illness relationships

Never ever say that you haven’t gotten sick. Seems it will bite you in the ass. Found that out over two weeks ago.

Caught strep throat somehow and luckily didn’t infect anyone I know.That was a fun ten days. Meds finished and then I catch cold.

This is also during a new girl that I have met recently. We have been together twice so far and considering the timing I appreciate her patience. Also impacts my other local girl too. Timing just sucks. One thing that I am very careful is if I’m sick I avoid any contact with anyone including any relationship I’m in. Don’t need to expand the infection let alone get into a loop where we keep getting sick over and over again. Continue reading Illness relationships

Intense

Not the first time I have been told I am intense.  More often I am told the first little while talking to a new girl I am very intense.  The only thing that I can come up with is that the new relationship energy (NRE) is so high that it is like a drug.  It consumes you.  Takes over your world and you can’t get enough of it.  Like any drug it wears off.  The problem is that there is no time frame and everyone is different.

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Out of arms reach

You can’t chose who you have feelings for.  It happens.  This is something I have gotten used to over the past few years.  The problem is that most women aren’t close by.

So when you have a person who is far away and having a tough time I feel powerless.  I want to help.  Need to help.  That is who I am.  When you can’t do it frustrates me.  Continue reading Out of arms reach

Subject to opinion

For those that know me please understand this is what I perceive.

So trying to find new blood.   Not a lot of options outside of dating sites.   Really hate them since in my previous rants women really seem to be picky.   With that said it also could be related to volume.  Either way it is rare for me to get a response.

I talked to one lady for about a week and a bit.  Talk is over rated.   There was no connection.  I asked a question about her experience and it went well.   Problem is that she didn’t engage.  I don’t do well on one side conversations.  No surprise that she  cut it off today.   I didn’t feel it either but still it has me wondering.   Continue reading Subject to opinion

Little lost

There is always a cycle of ups and downs in our lives.  I am going through an extended downward spiral.  Not by choice but by circumstance.

Maybe because I am burying my grandfather this weekend.  Maybe cause I have had majority of my fwb go off the market.  Maybe since I haven’t meet anyone new in months.  Add on family and work and it seems to have hit critical mass.  Continue reading Little lost

Re-Union with Lilly

Funny how distance can make relationships feel like a new experience after many months.  Lily planned to visit with her kids for a Canadian vacation for our second meet up of the year.   Knowing that it will be a challenge to have her alone to spend time together since all our kids will be home.  Normally for any event, I don’t think about it to much.   Have had many disappointments in the past so I try to stay in check up to the day of the event.  But my excitement got higher with each day passing. Continue reading Re-Union with Lilly

Overdue

Didn’t realize how long ago it was for my last post.  No I haven’t gone away.  Actually busy.   Oh not in that way… which is why this post.

The reason I started this blog is to write my ideas and thoughts help. Makes me process them better. Reason why I have been quiet of late is that I really didn’t know how to write it. No new blood and no one asking me questions has made for no new topics if late. Continue reading Overdue

Sex talk

Sex is usually talked about behind closed doors.  Something that is instilled by our parents when we are young.  It is taboo.  Shouldn’t be talked about.  Heck even TV and movies didn’t show anything since it is so bad for you.  Fast forward some years ahead (nice try, birthday is coming up but not going to reveal my age that easy) and the landscape has changed somewhat.  For one, TV has embraced sex.  The regular tv stations are trying to match what the subscription based ones have done for the past few years.  Hard to do since they have had full nudity along with some very graphic sex scenes.  It is a step in the right direction.  Sex is natural.  It happens regardless if we talk about it, show it, or even do it ourselves.

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It was a dark and snowy night

The lights shiny brightly as the bus pulled into the terminal.  Glancing around I see that I am the only one heading towards it.  Doors open with the familiar swoosh sound and I head up the stairs to board the bus.  It is dark, being it is night time there are no running lights inside.  I glance down the isle to head to my seat and notice a woman sitting near the middle.  She glanced up briefly as I moved down the isle and then back down at her phone.  I maneuvered myself with my bags into a seat just ahead of her’s and settle in for the long ride. Continue reading It was a dark and snowy night