Having a chat with a few guys at work and some how spam mail came up. As we talked I stated if I was to believe everything that I was sent then I would be a messed up guy. With that I thought it would be a good post just to see how screwed up I would be. This content is based on one of my email addresses that receives on average about 100 emails a day of spam and junk mail. So lets get to it.
Continue reading You AREN’T what you read!
So this will obviously get a reaction from the few women that I see. This is something that I have been working on dealing with. I am not kinky, and don’t give a woman pain. I have tried and dabbled when we first entered this world but quickly knew it was not for me.
A few of my women are into kink, including my wife. It has something that has been part of our life but not part of me. I am not able to do any of it after trying multiple different things. Don’t get me wrong, I understand a lot after being in the kink lifestyle by association. Long ago I found out that I could not give pain to any woman. So with that in mind, and then having this whole world opening up to my wife and me it has been a soul searching time for both of us.
Continue reading Bruised and sore
Never ever say that you haven’t gotten sick. Seems it will bite you in the ass. Found that out over two weeks ago.
Caught strep throat somehow and luckily didn’t infect anyone I know.That was a fun ten days. Meds finished and then I catch cold.
This is also during a new girl that I have met recently. We have been together twice so far and considering the timing I appreciate her patience. Also impacts my other local girl too. Timing just sucks. One thing that I am very careful is if I’m sick I avoid any contact with anyone including any relationship I’m in. Don’t need to expand the infection let alone get into a loop where we keep getting sick over and over again. Continue reading Illness relationships
Telling you to get my drink made you happy. You enjoy pleasing him and if that is something simple as this then you are happy to oblige. Mixing the whiskey with ginger ale you add a few cubes of ice and hand him the drink. His face is emotionless. No sign of approval or not. “Thank you,” he firmly states.
“I will let you know if I need anything else” as he turns back to the tv and continues to watch it. You are unsure what to do. You stand there fidgeting. Looking at him and then the tv. You finally decide to sit down beside him. Placing your hand gently on his leg it rests there as he sips on his drink. This continues for a time. You wondering what you are allowed to do as he is enjoying the show.
Continue reading Just a drink
Not the first time I have been told I am intense. More often I am told the first little while talking to a new girl I am very intense. The only thing that I can come up with is that the new relationship energy (NRE) is so high that it is like a drug. It consumes you. Takes over your world and you can’t get enough of it. Like any drug it wears off. The problem is that there is no time frame and everyone is different.
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You can’t chose who you have feelings for. It happens. This is something I have gotten used to over the past few years. The problem is that most women aren’t close by.
So when you have a person who is far away and having a tough time I feel powerless. I want to help. Need to help. That is who I am. When you can’t do it frustrates me. Continue reading Out of arms reach
For those that know me please understand this is what I perceive.
So trying to find new blood. Not a lot of options outside of dating sites. Really hate them since in my previous rants women really seem to be picky. With that said it also could be related to volume. Either way it is rare for me to get a response.
I talked to one lady for about a week and a bit. Talk is over rated. There was no connection. I asked a question about her experience and it went well. Problem is that she didn’t engage. I don’t do well on one side conversations. No surprise that she cut it off today. I didn’t feel it either but still it has me wondering. Continue reading Subject to opinion
There is always a cycle of ups and downs in our lives. I am going through an extended downward spiral. Not by choice but by circumstance.
Maybe because I am burying my grandfather this weekend. Maybe cause I have had majority of my fwb go off the market. Maybe since I haven’t meet anyone new in months. Add on family and work and it seems to have hit critical mass. Continue reading Little lost
Funny how distance can make relationships feel like a new experience after many months. Lily planned to visit with her kids for a Canadian vacation for our second meet up of the year. Knowing that it will be a challenge to have her alone to spend time together since all our kids will be home. Normally for any event, I don’t think about it to much. Have had many disappointments in the past so I try to stay in check up to the day of the event. But my excitement got higher with each day passing. Continue reading Re-Union with Lilly
Didn’t realize how long ago it was for my last post. No I haven’t gone away. Actually busy. Oh not in that way… which is why this post.
The reason I started this blog is to write my ideas and thoughts help. Makes me process them better. Reason why I have been quiet of late is that I really didn’t know how to write it. No new blood and no one asking me questions has made for no new topics if late. Continue reading Overdue